Friday, October 17, 2008

Estrangement Quotation

I saved this quote a long time ago, and do not know the author. If anyone knows who wrote it, please let me know. It is very long, and I will post parts of it here, from time to time. They are not my words, but they are my feelings.

"When we allow ourselves to celebrate breaking our children's bonds with their grandparent, we have taken the low road. We have been small minded, ungenerous, unloving, a bad parent, and a small human being. Only serious forms of child abuse by the grandparent can warrant influencing our children to cut off their relationship with their grandparent."

Savannah Mari Stafford

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

No words

Hello sweeties,

The picture above is Luna, playing a Greek statue in a Homecoming skit, on my 56th birthday too! (She looks as if she were in agony, no?)

As the two year anniversary approaches, the pain of not seeing you, or knowing your brothers has not lessened. I am not a writer, and am unable to express the pain I feel over not seeing you grow up, and how much I long to hug you! I recently read the following, excerpted, from a scrap booking newsletter I receive daily.

"You would think that the pain would have eased by now. But, it hasn’t. I can be going along with my day, doing normal things, when all of a sudden, out of the blue, that cold, hard-fisted, steel ball still hits me in the pit of my stomach as I think of... Savannah and Mari. (My words)."

Fortunately, after I reel from the realization and pain, I immediately remind myself that we will, indeed, see (them) again"

You can read the entire post, lovingly written by
Alberta Pugh, here on the Scrapgirl's site :

I miss you oh so much! You girls are the first thing I think of in the morning, and the last thing I think of at night, and about a gazillion times in between. When I pick up your sweet cousin, Luna at school, I see a girl that looks a lot like you, Savannah, and I get that kick in the stomach feeling.

We are at Tia's house, and I love being here. this town has grown on me, and I know the better parts of town,. I am even taking some college classes! I pick up Luna after school, and make her breakfast and lunch in the morning! Even though it is hard to get up that early, I love going into the kitchen and making a nice meal for Luna. I get to spend about half an hour with her and Tia. Then, we all get to eat dinner together in the evening. It is SO wonderful for us.

Luna is finishing up soccer and will soon start swimming lessons! (At an indoor pool). This morning we had the first snow of this winter! Luna was very excited and could hardly wait to throw a snow ball at tia on the way to school!

I hope this school year is going well, and I sure would love to see you girls in your uniforms! (I never have!). Learn your schoolwork well, and you will do great! I miss you so much and will love you forever and ever!

I love you more than chicken!
Love, Mom Mom

Friday, October 03, 2008