New School Year

Hello My Sweet Girls,

Luna started kindergarten on Tuesday! She was pretty excited, and was happy to see some of her pre-school friends at the same school!

(Yes, this IS Mom Mom and Pop Pop... getting older!)

She is riding the bus and loving it, so far! I sure hope you are having a good school year! I wonder who is walking you to and from school these days? It is sure hot now, but you won't have to trudge through snow like Luna will!

I am in the middle of painting Tia's and Luna's office. So back to work before the paint in my pan dries! I was remembering how I painted your rooms too! Blue with Winnie the Pooh borders for Savannah and lime green for Mari and Kirstan. I'll bet one of those rooms is now your brother's room, no?

I'll post some pictures when the office is all done!

Love you more than chicken!
Your forever grandmother, Mom Mom!
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Tears

Hello Sweet Girls,

I have finally learned how not to cry - usually. I never new it was physically painful to hold back tears- my eyes really hurt! I am often successful, but today the tears fell again. I got sad again, because I read this post, on a site I just love. This woman is addressing her grandmother, who has gone to heaven. She describes so well the pain I feel over not seeing your girls, and how I would love to know your brothers. Here is a copy of this wonderfully written letter- it says what I want to say!

"It’s four o’clock in the morning. Did you know? You know that’s not like me at all, but I had another dream about you. I miss you so much. Without the tiniest bit of cliché, I miss you so much it hurts. I can feel that spot in my heart, where you belong, collapsing. It’s not just a hole; it’s a void - a black hole - sucking everything else into it, creating more and more emptiness. I hate to admit it because it makes me sound like a spoiled, selfish child, but I want to look up to heaven and shake my fists at God and ask why He had to take you from me. I love you; I love you so much. But you know that, don’t you... didn’t you? I guess talking about you in past tense makes the fact that you are gone even more real.

I was there when you left. Did you know? It wasn’t scary or anything like I thought that it might be like. I wish that the people who made movies could experience (or maybe just talk to someone who has experienced) being with someone in their last moments. It’s not like it is in the movies. I know that it is different with every person, but you were finally at peace. You had been in so much pain. I am so glad you are not in pain anymore; but I miss you still.

I think I know now why people make deals with the devil. I am going to see you again, but I am so impatient. The thought of seeing you sooner is so tempting. Why is it that head-knowledge is so hard for my heart to understand?

You were worried about the kids remembering who you were. You should have had a little more faith in your “smart boy.” Jamison saw a picture of you, pointed his little finger at it and said “MeMa.” He loves you, too. I brought him to visit you before you left and you know what he said? He said, “MeMa’s sleepin’” and then he sang “Jesus Loves Me” and touched your hand.

There are so many things I want to tell you, but (wait, Margot cut two teeth last week) you’re busy. I also know that to be absent from the body is to be in the presence of Christ and I know there is no other place you would rather be than at the feet of our Lord. But, I still miss you, MeMa.... "

- Kelly Favor-Chronister

http://www.scrapgirls.com/NL/Chit_Chat_080827_Wed_Miss.htm


Dear Savannah and Mari, I love you forever! Sometimes I think is is best if you believe all that your parents have told you about me and Pop Pop, as it would make YOUR pain less. By now, you may not miss me at all, but I know you were terribly upset ABOUT the separation. You both cried when I told you this might happen. You sobbed when you told me Abuelo told you that Tia and I were no longer your family. Part of what hurt me more than anything, was knowing how hurt you two girls were when you thought you would not see us any more.

I only hope and pray that you are no longer sad. Just remember I am forever your grandmother and I will love you to pieces to my dying day!

I'll post later about Luna's first day of school!

Love you more than chicken!
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Big hugs, Mom Mom

Hello Sweeties,

How are my girls today? It is sunny and I am feeling better today! Last evening Luna and the neighborhood kids had so much fun playing after dinner, I thought I would share some pictures! It was fun for me, sitting ont he step and watching them... the last few days before school starts!

Here, Luna and her friends took turns pulling each other in a sheet!




Here, Luna and her friends played "Follow the Leader". Guess who was leader?


I just felt a strong urge to "talk" to you girls! I miss you so so much! I never stop thinking of you!

Oh, remember the angel bears I have- one for each of you and Luna, and 2 snow bears for Micah and Luca? Well, the boxes warped and turned brown from the sun. Pop Pop made a wooden bar and I have them and the snow bears for your brothers now, on my van dash. I will try to take a picture and post it soon! The angel and snow bears go everywhere I go... not that I need be reminded of you!

I love you lots, and think of you always! Sending BIG hugs to you!

Love you more than chicken!
Love, Mom Mom
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Hello My Sweet girls,

I'm thinking of you starting this new school year and how exciting it is! I wish I could see you dressed for school, and buy you some clothes and school supplies like in the past - but remember I am always thinking of you, being in school, playing, and at home.

We are at Tia's house and Luna starts school next week! Tia's friend is friends with Luna's teacher and principal, and took Luna to see her room and meet her teacher today. Someone told Luna that she might get in trouble at school, and be sent to the principal's office! Now Luna is less worried and seems to be looking forward to school! Last night I ordered Luna a stainless steel drink bottle and Thermos, since now we know how bad plastics are.

Tia ordered her a cute pair of black shoes and I found her a pair of pink shoes, styled almost like ballerina shoes! She has new dresses and pants and shirts and today Tia bought her supplies- crayons, glue, Kleenex, and such!

We need to come back home soon for a week or so, as I need to see a neurosurgeon. While there we will search for boots and a new play jacket for Luna! Luna is also doing VERY well with her reading! She will be starting soccer too! I was telling her about how you, Savannah, used to play soccer too! Remember how we came to all your games?

Have you seen ads for the new move coming out this September? It's called The Hollywood Chihuahuas. Pop Pop and I are taking Luna to see it when we get back here.

These are some tee shirts we had bought for you and your brothers, and were going to mail them anonymously, but after your folks called the police on me for calling you, I decided not to do so. I just wanted you to see them when you can! I have decided to give them to Tia's friend's little boy, Jack. (He is a real cutie). The horse tee I gave to Luna. Savannah's tee is so big, it may fit Mari by the time we get to see her, so I am saving it.








Have you seen the news about the little 3 year old girl who is missing? Her name is Caylee Anthony. I surely know what HER grandmother is going through... as it hurts terribly that I can't see you! I don't even know if you are ever sick, break a leg, or need to have an operation. Sometimes, when flipping through my photos, and I find one of you, I gasp and it feels like a knife in my chest. I still am waiting for the day that I know will come... the day we see you again!

I love you more than chicken, and always will!
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LOVE, Mom Mom, your forever grandmother!

Relatives and Stuff

Hello Sweeties,

I've been thinking a lot about family the past few years, and how no one's family is perfect. Family members have squabbles often. A brother does not repay another brother. A grandfather uses improper English. An aunt criticizes everyone's clothes. We all have these type of people in our families. We may *BE* one of these people. Does this really make them a BAD family member?

I am so sad that your mom won't let us see each other. You know Abuelo also has not spoken to Tia and Luna in over 5 years! She never banned him from visiting or calling her- he could have called Luna, sent cards, gifts, etc., he just didn't! She would have allowed that. Your mom and dad however, will not let me send you cards or gifts, along with not calling or seeing you. It is nothing but sad that our family is divided .... over what? Really.

My great Aunt Alice used to tell me constantly to clean my glasses, cut my bangs, and stand up straight. She would pinch me if I did not pay strict attention to the priest in church. I never held it against her and loved her to pieces. My uncle used to tell me I was ugly, and it hurt my feelings when he took my male cousin fishing at night, but not me. I adored him anyway.

As you girls grow up, remember, your family is your family... strange, different, short, fat, tall, and even a little loco! I heard once that it would be boring if we were all alike. I think that must be right. Family shares a heritage as well as blood and chromosomes. I don't think you should give up on family. You should give them a bit more leeway, a wider berth. You should treat everyone well, but why would you treat a stranger better than family?

Ok... we are at Tia's house again, as Luna wanted us to be here for her first day of Kindergarten! She is so excited, and picked out a My Little Pony lunch box.

This morning we all went to the Farmer's Market! We saw lots of little dogs and bought nice organic fruits and veggies. Luna LOVES raw green beans!



Here she is tasting goat cheese!



Looking at plants for sale!


I'm guessing you girls have done your school shopping and have your lunch boxes and backpacks ready! How exciting! I sure wish I could see you on your first day of school too! I am very happy to see Luna's first day! I may even volunteer in her class, like I did in your's, Savannah! Won't that be great? We will probably be here for a while this time since the cost of gas is so high!

Well, I am going to go now. Remember I think of you a gazillion times a day, and miss you terribly! We are family and Tia and Luna also miss you so bad - it hurts us all.

I love you more than chicken and always will!
Love and Hugs, Mom Mom
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